My Tunnel
Monday, January 31, 2005
I'm sorry... I don't mean to say what i said to u... i'm terribly sorry...
CrAsHbUrN was in @ 1:07 AM
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
The day flew past so fast.. went thru a lot of mixed emotions..from the morning till the end of the day! Kinda taken aback from the message that I got from Bluerose in the morning... Seriously speaking, I am glad that I have found her "again".. after all these 3 months! Well, a lot of things happened to us in these 3 months... well, whatever the case is, I seriously do not have any ulterior motive in getting back to her, cause I knew she is "attached"... I do not care if she is emotionally attached or not! But she sounded as if she's afraid to make her "guy" lost his trust in her by us talking that often! Often?! It's not as if I talked to her all the time..I have lost her in her own world for 3 months! But seriously speaking...I understand what she is going thru.. well, I prayed for her happiness... may she find tht blissfulness in life. Told myself not to call her that often.. coz I am really afraid to be the third party!
Terribly miss "Chipsmore" so much.... why do i call her tht? Coz it's just like the tagline... now u see and now u don't! Why is she doing tht to me..? What wrong have i done..? Called her after class and well, she's on her way to work... managed to talk to her for abt 20 mins.. before me and "Xiaomei" went for breakfast at LJS @ JP!
I have no plans whatsoever for tht day.. gt an SMS from "Fraff" about trying out some crazy experiment today! We'll be spraying and inventing a graffiti today! Don ask me how! I have no idea..!! ;) Went to get some paints and wooden board at Simpang Bedok... and went straight to the Pasir Ris Park/Beach!
Hahaha.. kinda weird to actually start spraying stuffs from the design tht "Fraff" had did! CyNiKz!! Came out with tht name for the work! Hahaha... Cool, huh?!! hehehe
Yup... all those spraying with "Fraff" are fun.. what do u expect.. the planning, execution and even the name of our group, "CyNikZ" are all the product of our quickwitted thinking! hahaha.. like real! hehehe..
But, never have i felt so much fun and enlightened by these, especially since I hv neer imagined myself doing graffiti all my life! Thanx to "Fraff", hehhee.. somehow, I am interested to know more abt graffiti! hehhee... ;)
Life is complicated.. full of blacks and whites... the colours u see are all illusions... it's a sad thing, isn't it? Talked to "Fraff" about life.. and it seems tht both of us are still searching for some truth in life... some complexities that could never be explained! Are there any answers after all? I have to be back to the real world tomorrow... how beautiful the world is just now.. by the beach, relaxing and just chatting away in discovering the true meanings of life and questioning some unexplainable stuffs!
I love the breeze just now.. makes me soooo carefree.. and hence forget all my troubles at tht point of time...
"Chipsmore", I seriously miss you terribly... I don't care what you're thinking and whether how significance I am to u in ur life.. I don care how u feel towards me or what u treat me as.... all i know is tht I terribly miss u rite now, even when I am typing this... It's only words.. and words are all I have, to take away your heart. My feelings for u has never subside...
Only Heaven Knows.....
CrAsHbUrN was in @ 11:14 PM
Sunday, January 23, 2005
Finally, I finally have my very own blogger.. hehehe.. courtesy of my pal, Bluerose! ;)
Thanx a lot for ur help in my very own blogger... still contemplating what to write now!! Hehehe... Well, perhaps.. this is the avenue of my expressions.. nt a bad idea after all, huh?! Hehehe...
Only Bluerose knows this blog.. hehehe.. well, I do not know if I should tell other people about it.. :)
Well.. only Heaven knows......
CrAsHbUrN was in @ 1:02 PM
