My Tunnel
Monday, February 14, 2005
Dear Chipsmore....
U told me not to give up my hope and try my very best...coz only fate will decide...and believe me, I tried my very best... even at this point of the time in my life....but the saddest thing is that.. it has only been me who tried... coz u have never given my that encouragement thru ur actions... I am not asking or begging for ur love...all that i asked was ur encouragement... and the will for me to try moving on...
I donno when will my tears dried up.... I donno when will I stop myself from being a mad freak, crying alone at night...clinging on a thread and hoping hopelessly for ur old self to be back again... :"""(
My assignment is due on Wednesday.. and here I am crying and not being able to focus anythg...any shit on my work!! Dear Allah, give me that extra strength for me to move on.... I am needing u at this point.. I am at my lowest point in my life... I am not a slave to love.... But I donno have that stragth to move on... Give me that extra faith to believe in myself...
Chipsmore... only u can bring me back to life....till then, I'll be far away from u.... call me a coward...but I'll try to be far away... running as hard as I could from my misery.... and live on my own world of sadness, gloominess and despair... the only thing in life that I am clinging on to my life is my family... and Allah swt..
Chipsmore... u need space... and i will give u my word... only if u care..u'll be bringing my life back to me...till then... i just wanna know.. I, have never changed.... neither myself nor my deepest emotions and feelings....
Till then.... take care.... if u do not care... just ignore all these.... But if you care... help me pick up my shattered dreams and broken heart.. and bring me back to my old life....
It's not ur love that I am begging from...believe me... all i asked was a hope of life from u :'''(
CrAsHbUrN was in @ 12:18 AM
