My Tunnel
Monday, February 14, 2005
Came to school at ard 3.30pm to submit my assignment...unable to attend the morning lectures coz feeling so sick... and sucky... I donno why.. bad influenza bug in the air... or perhaps it's just me who's a weakling... ahhaaha...right, Bluey?
Wasn't in the right state of mind to do anythg rite now... still another assignment's due on Wednesday..half-way done... will not be coming to school tomo...will be cooping up in my room completing this assignment...Seems like I'm really dragging myself to complete it..
Unable to think much rite now... Sigh... everythg is affected in my life... Perhaps, I'm at my lowest point in my life rite now...and just like "Anonymous Lady" said.. there's more to come?!! Hmm... who is she?
I am just not in my right mind... till the point that I have to take "time out" from my beloved silat training... sigh... the IVP Competition is coming up in June in NP.. I hope Supergirl will understand my situation...She's such a "sis"... told me to confide in her.. but I just can't! Eventually, she allowed me to sort my personal problem out before it's affecting my training...I'm glad she understands..
Bluey... I hope u'll get well pretty soon... I'll prayed that the bad will get his deserts and the good will be rewarded...saw ur gift by ur teddy... chocolates... u love tht don't u?! :)
V-day... today... getting sick and it was pretty nauseating to see those flowers and mushy couples... not tht I am jealous of them... but... are they sure that their loved ones appreciate what they have done?! Are they very sure that their loved ones really feel the same way as they do?
Chipsmore... I may be gone temporarily.. and be silenced... but believed me.. I still remember u...coz ur very special... I never blamed u for anythg... perhaps, I'm just being misled by the blindness of my love that I failed to see the difference between true love and frenship... I'm praying for ur best of health and happiness for u and ur family... I may be"gone".. but I do still remember u coz ur in my heart and I prayed that this feelings will not fade away.. and may Allah swt show us the right direction that we shld take.. :""" ) Whatever happens between us, ur still my fren.. and i will cherished every single memories that we had for the rest of my life...
It's not ur love that I am begging off... All i asked was a ray of hope... a hope i could work on and a hope that I could live on.. :''')
Am so sickly..... Gonna turn in now..ZZZzzzzzzz
CrAsHbUrN was in @ 10:39 PM
